Tuesday, August 29, 2006
well, it's been a long time that i actually blog.. been too tired for any others stuff. my mood currently is obvious right? haha.. recently just founded out that, i'm just a silly kid. always been fool by others. why am i that dumb? just wanna ask someone to go for a bbq need to ask till like begging? firstly i didnt wanna beg, and secondly if u make a promise just dont break it. giving me some excuses and saying sry really means anything? i just hate that u see?
for nearly a mth i didnt get pissed off or show my attitude. but on last sat, i really got angry. i just feel down on my mood, here i'm trying to change the bad temper of myself, and changing to a better attitude. but there u're trying to test my patience again. for what i know, i had sacrifice so much, but did u ever bother? dun u have feelings too? u should knew it urself. u're just making me like an idiot that when u need me, i'll be there for you. but did u ever make it that when i need u, are you there for me? maybe i complaint too much. maybe i just on 1 side love. but if it's so, dun give me those chances that i thought i had. and the next min, u're like a total stranger to me. is this mood swing? or u're just playing me out? for now, i'm just gonna leave it to fate and destiny, what is mine will be mine, those that isnt mine, i wouldnt go degrading myself like an idiot anymore. can someone tell me what is love? kinda sick to have those love love feelings. i just hate that.
perhaps i just complaint too much. last sat supposingly to be enjoying, but ended up having a bad mood. after a bad bbq when mu to chill. first time being there, didnt went clubbing for a real long time. quite enjoy myself thx to kim bro. i guess after i vent everything here i felt more relieve. time to go for bed. kinda got too tired by what i did today. so i'll be blogging again when i have time =)
it got me home
8/29/2006 02:34:00 AM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
this past few days have been really sick. sick of doing stuff. kinda been too lazy i suppose. today off work early.. 3pm kinda reach hme. and after having my lunch i went to have a bath and fallen aslp at 4+ i guess.. after that wake up at 8pm as my mum left the room lights on. today is such a boring day for me. had no plans, had no where to go. sometimes really feel like finding some companion to go out with. i really hope to find someone to confine all my stuff to.. but i just cant find that person yet... and i wanna find someone that really could cheer me up. i wish tat i nv knew her. as sometimes i would miss her so much that i'm having mood swing now and then... what's actually wrong with me? we're of the different world. why still cling on to stuff that is impossible... why am i such a idiot that dun admit things? i'm such a failure. i hate myself. i hate everything. i hate to admit that there's not even 0.0001 percent at all... haiz....
it got me home
7/23/2006 02:47:00 AM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
hmm, just created my blog. still new to everything... today is same as yesterday cause i'm bedridden at home again.. gonna quit smoking from today onwards.. hope i will never lit my money away again.. sometimes i just look up to the sky and wonder, why i have to do something the hard way. cant i do it the easy way? i tried so hard and just cant get to succeed in forgetting somethings. which totally made me like a jerk. =(
it got me home
7/19/2006 06:00:00 AM
