Tuesday, August 29, 2006
well, it's been a long time that i actually blog.. been too tired for any others stuff. my mood currently is obvious right? haha.. recently just founded out that, i'm just a silly kid. always been fool by others. why am i that dumb? just wanna ask someone to go for a bbq need to ask till like begging? firstly i didnt wanna beg, and secondly if u make a promise just dont break it. giving me some excuses and saying sry really means anything? i just hate that u see?
for nearly a mth i didnt get pissed off or show my attitude. but on last sat, i really got angry. i just feel down on my mood, here i'm trying to change the bad temper of myself, and changing to a better attitude. but there u're trying to test my patience again. for what i know, i had sacrifice so much, but did u ever bother? dun u have feelings too? u should knew it urself. u're just making me like an idiot that when u need me, i'll be there for you. but did u ever make it that when i need u, are you there for me? maybe i complaint too much. maybe i just on 1 side love. but if it's so, dun give me those chances that i thought i had. and the next min, u're like a total stranger to me. is this mood swing? or u're just playing me out? for now, i'm just gonna leave it to fate and destiny, what is mine will be mine, those that isnt mine, i wouldnt go degrading myself like an idiot anymore. can someone tell me what is love? kinda sick to have those love love feelings. i just hate that.
perhaps i just complaint too much. last sat supposingly to be enjoying, but ended up having a bad mood. after a bad bbq when mu to chill. first time being there, didnt went clubbing for a real long time. quite enjoy myself thx to kim bro. i guess after i vent everything here i felt more relieve. time to go for bed. kinda got too tired by what i did today. so i'll be blogging again when i have time =)
it got me home
8/29/2006 02:34:00 AM
